# A Prayer of the Now
channelled on May 15, 2024 while stepping on the plane from SFO to DEN for the ICON 2024 conference
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what is better than a beginning?
stepping onto a plane and not knowing what will come, knowing there is surprise waiting for me
what is better than the middle? momentum flowing, pieces aligning, inertia all around
what is better than an ending? the satisfaction of a day well spent, a job well done, a circle completed
what is better than this moment now?
always already perfect
what is better than being here with you?
the ones i love, we who know each other
lord i am grateful for this
just this
just what is arising now
the past is gone forever
the future never comes
you have sent me to hell
dismembered me
cicadas have swarmed over me and torn me apart
you have taken me to high heavens
and knit me together into wholeness with golden thread
you have sent me worthy enemies
wise counselors
powerful companions
enough hardship to burn away what i am not
enough grace to help me become who i am
what have you not given me?
what advantage has not been mine?
what sorrow has been in vain?
what victory has escaped me?
moments come and go
sensations too
pleasure and pain and the great dance of this magnificent play
but when have you ever left me?
for we are continuous
indistinguishable
send me your legions of demons
break me
and make me strong
send me your choruses of angels
play my drums when i come
and uplift me
send me what is needed
i accept it all
you have never not walked beside me
and i walk with you
amen